Passion

You know it's late when everyone else has left the studio and all that is left is the handful of dancers.
You know it's late when you write 2349 and sign your name.
You know it's late when your friend has been waiting in the car for ages.
You know it's late when you tap your card at CFA and it reads 23:53, WELCOME!
You know it's late when there are no more buses home.
You know it's late when your friend calls at 00:34:13 and you're still on the way home.
You know it's late when you step into a pitch-dark house and everyone is fast asleep, even the dog.
You know it's late when there's a bun and 3 sushis from this morning left on the table - your dinner for the day which has just passed.
You know it's late when you step into your parent's room and hear soft snoring.
You know it's late when you have to bathe in the other toilet because you don't want to wake your parents up.

-from zhu's blog

Thats so true for most of us right now. (most of us, cos some simply heck care)

I met wang laoshi last weekend, and as most of the ppl who follow my blog may know, she was the one who brought me into dance in sec 1. Without her, I wouldn have stayed on in dhs dance as it wasn my first choice. Looking at her now, I really wonder what would have happened these 8 years if I havent been dancing?

Maybe my results would have been better.

Maybe I would have more time to spend with my family.

Maybe I could bake more, and learn more baking from my parents.

Maybe I could have better dinners, and not come home at 12 midnight and munch on plain white bread. (so good, you can eat it alone)

Maybe I could have nicer legs, without all the blue blacks and scars.

But.

I would not have been able to survive in NUS biz, where I had hardly any friends in yr 1 and had to find solace in NUS Chinese Dance.

I would not have trained myself to be better at time planning.

I would not have known the pretty belles from hc.

I would not have make it big in the hc magazine. (go flip it, u will know what i mean)

I would not have understood my own emotions better.

Yes, this journey is making me tired and worn out. But for me, this journey may be ending soon. 8 years of dancing, and this is very much a full stop for me.

I dunnoe whether I can go on. But I got to. Just like all my other dancers do.