What will you do?

Went to K box today, then went on to mr tam's house to watch tv.

We were watching my fav show now on channel 8, 幸福双人床。I love the show cos it has got tay ping hui, pierre png and liu zhixuan. But anyway, today the episode sort of triggered off a thought in me. It was when the mother, played by Huang Biren, sent her son back to the stepmother, in the hope that the stepmother would abuse the son, and then she could have evidence to fight for the custody of the children.

At the moment when she sent the son back, my heart went out to the son. To go back to an environment of utmost danger and uncertainty, the fear is almost unbearable. Moreover, the boy is just a primary school kid, and he has to irritate his stepmum in order to finish his mission. Its like the chinese saying, 明知山有虎，偏向虎山行。But to a primary school kid, it was no longer about just setting a trap for the stepmum, but the trauma that he has to go through, irritating his stepmum and anticipating the punishment to come through.For me, there was absolutely no reason why he should sacrifice himself.

But mr tam had another point of view. He felt that in order to get the children away from the evil stepmother forever and for good, the best way was to send the child back. Although there is going to be pain, it will only be temporary, and it is to prevent further torture.

I wont say who is right and who is wrong. But it clearly shows how girls and guys brains work differently. I guess girls are always the emotional ones while guys are always the rational ones.

And thats why we complement each other so well. =)

Dance

I am beginning to love NUS Chinese Dance.

I dunnoe why, but I am getting more and more happy to go for dance each week. Although I may not be able to talk to the TAT clique, I could talk to almost the rest of them. Seniors and peers alike. Talking to Melissa, Jing Xian makes me realise actually NUS Chinese Dance have people who are unique and different from that of others.

Not that TAT is not good. Today, Michael asked me whether I considered joining TAT. My first reaction was no. Not sure why I was so certain. In my heart, a certain part was flattered as they actually thought I was good enough to go into TAT. But, there are also parts that tells me that I cannot betray my seniors. I need to stay neutral, a pure member of NUS Chinese Dance. And also, I cant seem to get along with the TAT people. The environment may be a bit too stressful for me. So I rather go attend ballet lessons at another dance school.

Somehow, I feel that they asked me because Laoshi started putting me infront for the DR dance. But, I dun feel that it was because of my capability but rather due to my height, position and Laoshi knows me better than my peers. Moreover, Junni hasn been coming and I think she is a much better dancer than I am. But Laoshi has put me into almost the whole of the dance. A very very previledged opportunity. But I am quite not confident of myself, since my technique sucks big time. I will still do my very very best, to prove myself!

NUS Chinese Dance Rocks!

Leanne's Birthday Party

Last sunday was Leanne's birthday party celebration!

And each of the sibling had a special job to fulfill. My da jie has to prepare salad, my kor kor has to bring his karaoke system, and me, the most tiring job of all, DECORATIONS!

And so I reached with mr tam at my sis house at around 3.30pm, bringing along all the deco that my big sis bought and the pinata that i bought. After blowing dunnoe how many balloons, I realised that the room was simply too empty, so asked mr tam to help me go great world city to buy some more decorations and helium balloons.

Ha but when he came back, he bought this kind of balloons.

So I kept teasing him that helium balloons float! Ha first time my science is better than his.

But anyway, the party was supposed to start at 6 but we struggled to finish the deco at only 6.15pm. Whats worse, I haven had any meals for that day yet. However, I am very proud of my pinata!

The first pic shows the pinata at the start of the party, and the second one shows the pinata after isaac and leanne pulled it! Haha, both of them were so shocked when the sweets fell out, especially leanne! Her face is so funny! would upload the video when i have it!

Then came the karaoke part, when Isaac kept holding on to the mic! He could only sing a few words but it is already very good for a what, 3 year old kid? But when his parents were singing, he was still holding on to the mic, hoping to see a word that he knows. But too bad, those were chinese songs! Ha, he is so adorable!

Cant imagine when they go off to America. Will miss the kids like mad.

Everything's back to normal =)

I believe in yesterday..

我不会怪你对我的伪装
天使在人间是该藏好翅膀
人们愚蠢鲁莽
而你纤细善良
怎能让你为了我被碰伤
小小的手掌
厚厚的温暖
你总能平复我不安的夜晚
不敢想的梦
想透过你的眼光
我才看见它原来在前方
没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

Updates

Well, haven't blog for a really long time...

And why am I blogging now, at 2 am in the morning? Maybe its because I have just had a big quarrel with mr tam. One big enough to separate the both of us. Forever.

Am I sad? I don't know, considering the fact that I was always the one who asked for a break up. Then again, we always patched up soon after. This time, all hopes seem lost.

He shouted at me, and slammed down the phone. The first time, after he promised not to raise his voice at me.

And the stupid thing is, I was nagging about his ulcer. And now, I have one too.

I have absolutely no idea who I am writing this for, since he is practically the only one who reads my blog.

But, its 2 am, what else can I do?

Okay, lets go to the updates part.

Finished my exams, didn really think I will do very well. After that, was half slacking, half tuitioning. Oh, and I took over one of my student's chinese teacher as she was teaching him the wrong things. She must hate me even more now.

Took over as Chinese Dance President. This job is not enjoyable.

Not going to Canada anymore.

Was going to Hong Kong, dunnoe what to do now.

So basically, life sucks. Big time.

Let me get over this.